Dilemma

I only found out that AJC was opposite my school. Recently, whenever I walked out of the school, I will glance at AJC. "Why didn't I work hard enough? I always wanted a JC," I thought. Yes, up till June last year, I was determined to go to a JC because it has a structured timetables and school uniforms. I wouldn't have to worry about what to wear everyday. I admit, I always wanted to go to CJC because the people there looks nice and the environment is friendly, although there's the *ahem* rumour.

It was only when I received my MYE results that changed my mind. My results were horrible and I began to think a lot during the June holidays. I listed out all the pros and cons of the JC and Poly. JC might be stresser and I will have to mug everyday, but the school fees are cheaper(LOL) and I want to join everyone for the national anthem. On the other hand, many people said Poly is fun(but I feel very stress!) and lessons starts later. We could also wear whatever we want, dye our hair and it was also a perfect excuse to ask parents to buy a laptop for us. At the end of the entire course period, we will be awarded with a Diploma certificate.

The cons for Poly is that there are lesser scholarships available as compare to JC students, and if you dream of going to the top 10 universities in the world after getting your Diploma, they would most likely accept JC students instead. I want to earn a scholarship, but they might not want me.

Poly is more for an independent learner. I'm not one of them. I am too shy to approach people and ask questions. I was afraid of making mistakes and do presentations. If I was studying in a JC, I probably would be burying my head into many piles of books, trying to memorise notes for the examinations.

Well, I have no choice. I chose my choice and Poly already, so there's no way I could back out. My results aren't even qualified to go to a JC so I should stop thinking about it. Move on, and forget about my regrets. I can be a better person if I am willing to work hard in Poly.