Freedom

I do not have freedom at all. Not that I don't have it totally, I do have a bit, let's say, 50%.

Maybe it's because I am the only daughter my parents have, or maybe because I am a woman. They are constantly reminding me not to hang out late etc, but c'mon, I need my freedom. I need my space.

I feel envious of my friends whose parents are not as strictly controlled as me. Some of my friends would tell me stories of which they went home at 6am the next day, which my parents would vehemently object if I wished to do it. However, whenever I tell my friends that I cannot do a lot of things, they would lament that what a good parents I have. Yes, I have to admit, they are, but they shouldn't control me too tightly.

You see, I am a person who loves to explore the world. I am like a bird, yearning to see the world.

I always have a dream of studying overseas. I would dream of myself settling into a foreign country, where I have to accustom myself to the new environment. The best part is, I will be making friends with people from all over the world. It is a good experience, ain't it?

It is good to have a dream, but what if this dream will never be fulfilled?

I am crying while typing this out. Yes, laugh all you want.

I always told my dad about my dreams and he would always promise me that he will allow me to study overseas, but my mum will always pour cold water onto me and tell me to give up my dream of studying overseas. My parents just couldn't afford to pay the hefty school fees.

Even so, I had never thought of giving up my dreams. I would console myself that I could get a scholarship, or  a bank loan. However, it would be difficult to obtain a scholarship since students who are took their 'A' levels would have a priority over Polytechnic students.

This is so demoralising. Yesterday, I participated in a community project organized by NUS students. The group members I had were most probably from JCs. I felt a bit embarrassed to tell them that I am studying in a Polytechnic.

My friend also told me that a radio commented that "Polytechnic students will never be as smart as JC students". That is so hurtful. Does this mean that a Polytechnic student would have an even lesser chance to obtain a scholarship?

I have digressed quite a lot. Let me get back to the main point on freedom.

I know I am still young, but I should have my own personal space. It's not as if I would do something illegal or pick up bad habits like smoking.

I have an independent mindset and I do not like people to control me. I always suppress my feelings instead of revealing them to you because I am afraid you will get worried. However, you felt that I do not share things with you and you will go on saying that I will get my retribution one day. I guess it doesn't pay to be good. *sigh*

I love my family. I just couldn't express my feelings out. I want to share everything with you, but you always say that you don't have time. You felt that I have neglected this family, but in truth, I care a lot. As you said, action speaks louder than words, but probably my actions were too discrete for you to notice.

I felt so much better after writing this post. My parents probably wouldn't read this though.

Pressure

As I was on my home from school today, two girls looked at me, then started to talk. "What was it?" I thought. I looked around me and then back at them again. Oh, so it's the way I dress.

These two girls wore almost matching clothes and shoes, and their hair were tucked neatly behind their ears. Their make-up skills were superb too. On the other hand, I dressed like a typical Singaporean- a shirt with a pair of jeans, and my hair was in a mess. I look...sloppy.

I know I know, I am not fashionably dressed. Or rather, I'm too conservative. I don't wear tubes(it's meant to be worn inside btw), and I don't wear very short shorts(those that barely cover your buttocks).  I don't even know if "conservative" is the correct term to describe me. LOL.

So back to the point, I don't really dress well, but that's not always the case. Aside from special occasions, I do make an effort to dress up. I'm not going to dwell on that.

My point is, why should dress so nicely for school? I mean, I am only going to be in school for a few hours, at most, 10 hours. Won't it be weird if I dress nicely to school, but I am lugging a huge bagpack to school? I would have looked horrible with my shoulders slouching.

I also wouldn't want to put on make-up to school. It'd melt in a few hours due to the hot and humid weather. I don't mind putting on make-up for a few hours though.

It's ironic that Asians in Asia wants to dye their hair to another color whereas Asians in other parts of the world, let's say, the States, wouldn't want to dye their hair as much as we do. In Singapore, you can find all kinds of hair colors. I even see some with purple or red hair. However, many people wants to have black hair in the States and you would rarely see Asians in the States with other type of hair colors.

I feel pressurized. It's a mixture of peer pressure and society pressure. I feel that each of us have their own distinct "style", and no one should mock at others because of the way they dress. All in all, don't judge a person by the way they dress.

Blah

I. HAVE. NO. INSPIRATION. TO. BLOG.

I will be back. Soon.

Period.

Ties

Sometimes, when some people says, "My grandmother is organizing a party," I feel envious. How close am I to my relatives?

Maybe not close, yet maybe close.

My oldest cousin is only a few years younger than my mum, and I am the youngest grand-daughter on either sides. My cousins are all grown up. Some are married, and some are engaged. I cannot feel the bond among us. Or maybe it's just me who can't feel it. Something is strangling me.

Most of my cousins are successful in their life, as in, they have a stable job and stable income. I am pressurized. As you all know, parents tend to compare. I am not saying that my parents love to compare, but I know that they are thinking right in their heart, why can't I be as smart as them. 

I am not smart. I am lazy. I don't try my best. However, I listen in class. I am good at other things. 

Maybe this course isn't right for me. Recently, I have been asking my friends what if I dropped out of this course and maybe go to some private institutions. Some asked me why would I want to drop out. Well, I don't know. Maybe it's because I don't know what I want to be in the future. When I went to see the UPGRADE system, the courses listed there do not interest me at all. Or rather, they are competitive courses. I have no confidence in myself. 

Well, you might suggest an overseas university. Where does the money come from then? If I can't produce good grades, I shall forget about a scholarship. A local university? I really want to study in a local university, but 80% of the spaces are given to 'A' levels students. Why? It's because Poly students have tuition grant while they do not, but their school fees are still cheaper than Poly students. Ah whatever, if  I continue to say this, my 'A' levels friends are going to argue back. Gah. =/

I am also thinking of going to a private-government subsidized university if I cannot enter any local universities, but when I think of having little or no opportunity of going for internships and such, this will be a disadvantage for me when I want to find a job after graduating. I am so freaking stress!!!

Oh, and I don't like it when people tell me that "your school business students cannot be compared to my school's business students", I feel like hitting them. Aright, no violence here. Hello?! All Polys are the SAME. Don't tell me that if you get a GPA score of 3.5 and I a GPA score of 3.8, you will get into uni instead of me. Dream on! I strongly believe Singapore is a fair country. Everyone has a chance of going to uni. :)

I finally said my piece! :D

I'm not sure

My feelings are screwed. I don't know who am I. Am I still the same good and innocent girl? Or did I turn into a bad girl? I'm confused.

I wished I knew another language, maybe my own language, where no one knows what I'm talking about.

That will be awesome.

Another typical day

I have so many things to says yet so little time to write. I'm going to write everything I want to say in this post.

Firstly, I got a laptop! I was extremely excited when I went to buy the laptop and started using it almost immediately when I reach home. Of course, I use it while it was charging. How else could I have used it? Lol. One thing I dislike about this laptop is its audio. It's so sucky. It becomes very "noisy" when I increased the volume to the loudest. Oh, and also the webcam. My face was upside down and I don't know how use it! Urgh. Well, at least I got a laptop right. :)

I have been attending lessons for two weeks already. Based on these two weeks, I'm very sure that school will be tough for me. I take 8 modules(6 mains and 2 cores) and we have lecture and tutorial every week. I'm dead beat. I look like an old haggard now. Although I smile at everyone everyday, I'm tired deep inside my heart. A smile that conceals my tiredness. When I was in secondary school, I always want to hang out everyday but now, all I want to do is to go home, finish my homework and sleep. That is becoming my routine now. I don't have time to go out.

I noticed that my class is not as bonded as the other classes. We are splitted into six cliques. My clique consists of six people, including me, and it is the largest girl clique among the girls in my class. It is good to be in cliques; you can shed off your mask and be the person you want to be. However, why can't we be bonded as a class?

The first conflict occurred when a guy called a lecturer the "king of procrastination". We weren't supposed to laugh, but some of my classmates did. It was already embarrassing enough to be shamed by the lecturer, so why did you guys add salt into his wound? *sigh* I am not trying to defend anyone here. Yes, it was his fault to call the lecturer the "king of procrastination", but c'mon, he deserve a chance to repent. That was at least what I thought.

CCA open house was held last Wednesday and Thursday. My clique went to see the various CCAs available in the school. It was an exciting sight. I wanted to join sports soooooooooooooooooo much though, but the practice sessions are so tiring! Yes I know I am lazy, but as I mentioned above, I am already very tired after lessons, so I gave up the thought of it. I wanted to join Chinese Orchestra(CO) too, because I know how to play the guzheng. However, I was from guzheng ensemble and if I join CO, won't I be playing some parts only? I am used to playing the mains so if you want me to be a sub member, forget about it. Hence, I joined two clubs instead. One trains your leadership and another on compassion. :) I am currently waiting for the leadership reply, and I hope to get in!

In secondary school, many people thought that I was from China because I have this oriental look and always speak to me in Mandarin and thought that I took Higher Chinese. OMG that was hilarious. I came from a two-language family. I speak English to my mum and brother and Mandarin to my dad. Hence, I am more comfortable with English. This is so random. Lol.

One of my classmate looks like my friend. The hairstyle and dressing sense are almost identical. If you look at the side view, it's 90% lookalike, but from the front, it's 70%. They are a bit different though. My friend speaks only English while my classmate speaks both. They also have one common thing, that is, both of them go clubbing. LOL.

I went for one of the CCA orientation today and it was totally fun! There's another girl who has the same name as me. One of them is also 34 this year. =O I met new people, and even explored the school in the most interesting way. I regret wearing loafers instead of shoes though. I can't run as fast as I wished! =/ Hopefully, I will love this CCA as much as I did for dance and playing the guzheng. :)

I can't think of anything to write. Gah. Till then! ;)

First day of school

As the title suggest, I'm a full-time student again after five months. :D

It means that I can't surf the internet as much as I want to, not able to watch a lot of dramas and lastly, I have to start studying again.

I'm gonna blog about my first day of school.

So...I was late for lesson. Not a good sign huh. *sigh* It wasn't my fault though; I couldn't find the room! Gah, it was so embarrassing walking into the room when everyone was already sitted. I promise I'll never be late again! =X

Lessons went on and we were asked to do some questions. I'm gonna skip parts of the process. The thing is, I never took POA during my secondary school days and we were called to do some simple accouting questions. Okay I exagerated, the sums are simple. :) I just took a longer time solving the questions. I will recall the lesson tonight. *pats head*

We had a two and a half hours of break time, but one hour was spent on buying lecture notes! -_- It was so darn heavy(five booklets!) and we had to carry it till the end of the day. I would have bought it after school if not for the lecturer who asked us to buy them during our break time...

We had another lecture. Oh I love that lecturer so much! He's so funny and I was able to understand the lesson most of the time. :D

A few of our classmates were forced to transfer to another class though. The school shouldn't do it. I mean, if you want to open another class, you should do it during the orientation. I feel so sad for those who are transferring to another class. =(

I used too much italics here. I know this post is very boring but I'll try to make it more interesting next time. :)

I am going back to school!

My five months holiday is ending soon! Fine, minus two months for me. It was a long holiday. During this period of time, I NEVER touched any of my books at all. *sigh* I guess I'll have troubles getting used again. Both my written and spoken English dropped tremedously; my grammars are wrong and I can't use a more profound vocabulary as I could in the past. =( Time to brush up your English, Charmaine!

What had I exactly done this past three months?

Well, basically, I held a part-time job, albeit quitting two days later. I gained new experiences though. The pay is pretty decent, but I hated the fact that I reached home between 12.30am and 1am.

I went out a lot. It's time to catch up with my friends after spending all my time studying for the O levels last year. A well deserved reward for me. :D We went to the movies and organized many shopping sprees. I bought a lot of clothes and on food. Hehe.

I spend a lot of time using the internet. I don't play games on the computer, so I watch dramas instead. Drama-thon. Japanese, Korean and Taiwan dramas. I think I watched more than 20 titles this five months. I spent more time on Facebook too.

Oh, I also received my O levels results and got posted to the course I want. Went for a two months preparatory programme. Met an awesome bunch of people who were all in the different courses during the two months.

Some of my friends and previous high school schoolmates went overseas to study too. Shermaine, one of my best friend, went back to Hong Kong. Alex, my classmate who's from England, returned to England. He's taking a gap year and will be studying for his A levels in a school in England. Ling Ling, my China friend, I heard that she's studying in Canada now. Some of them also went to Australia to study. I wished them all the best in their studies, and hope that they'll visit us back in Singapore in the future. :) I will miss all of you!!!

As a freshman, my goal is to study hard and get a good GPA score, and hopefully in three years time, I'll be able to study in an overseas university or a local university, probably holding a scholarship. I also hope that I will be able to interact with more people instead of staying in my comfort zone and make many true and good friends in my new school. :D

Orientation

I had my orientation yesterday. It was...fun I guess. I wasn't in my normal self though; I talked more than I did. You can say that I'm trying to be more sociable. Anyway, my classmates will notice the difference in me in a few weeks time.

My class consists of 30 students. The number is the same as my upper secondary class. It came as a surprise to me because I thought a class should only consist of 20 to 25 students in Poly. I was proved wrong.

My class has some of the smartest people coming from the four corners of Singapore. I'm envious(not jealous!) of these people.

Morning was boring. It was talks, talks and more talks. Furthermore, they were held in the sport hall, which means that we had to sit cross-legged for almost four hours. My butt was numb. Lol. The fun started in the afternoon. We played water games but the sun was blazing hot. I got sunburnt albeit not as serious as the one I had when I went to Pulau Ubin. Gotta spam lotion this week!

Orientation was supposed to end at 7.30pm, but it was dragged till 8.15pm. Clear enough, I reached home at 9.20pm and had SUPPER instead of dinner. =/

All in all, I think that orientation is fun. Sadly, it was the girls who were active. I wished the guys in my class would be more active though.

That's all for today! I will try to update often. :)

Hiii

Did anyone miss me? xD

I just felt that I shouldn't let this blog rot.

I'm really busy nowadays. This coming week will be my last week of the programme, hence, I have a lot of projects to complete. Well, I have actually completed them, just that I have to rehearse. ;)

Hmm, I will post soon! :D

Shucks!

I wrote one whole lengthy post but accidentally deleted it. -_-
I will repost it tomorrow.

My irritating brother

I have so many complains against my brother!


1. I always have to give in to him.

2. He is aggressive towards me ONLY. (Righto, he kicks and throw punches at me wtf)

3. He likes to compare.

4. He likes to malign me.

5. He makes me the scapegoat.

etc...



I dislike his actions so much that I vent my anger outside my home. I can't reprimand or hit him, if not people will label me as a sister abuse. =X The reality is so sad.

HOWEVER,

because I was able to list out many complaints against him, it shows that I know him extremely well.

No matter what happen, I will love my brother wholeheartedly. We might have to depend on each other next time.

I just hope that he will stop his nonsense or I'll make him pay in the future by torturing him with tons of revision worksheets! What goes around comes around. Hahahah I'm bad. ;)

HAPPY...

LUNAR NEW YEAR!

Everyone should be busy collecting red packets eh. ;)

Well, not for me. I had the most boring celebrations this year.

It was different from my younger days.

Before the start of CNY, my paternal grandparents will come over to our house for reunion dinner. We will be having steamboat and everyone will squeeze in a table. It was an enjoyable moment.

On the first day, all my relatives will gather at my maternal grandparents's place for a meal. I would play with my cousins and the adults will chat among themselves. In the evening, my mum and her close secondary school friends will have a gathering and she always bring us everytime. It was really fun.

On the second day, my family will bring my maternal grandparents over to each of my aunt's house. It was a tradition. We will have dinner at either one of the aunt's house.

On the third day, it was our family day, provided that there is no school(usually there is). Whether or not it was shopping or cycling, it was fun.

HOWEVER,

it changed.

Some of our relatives have to work(that, I can understand). However, what about those who have nothing to do? You leave when you finish eating? For what reasons? 

According to De Xin, Chinese New Year means that regardless of your religion, it is a day where all chinese in the world gather together with their family.

My mum and her secondary school friends do not organise any gatherings anymore. When we did not meet for once or twice during CNY and Christmas, I told myself it was alright. However, in years to come, I began to miss those gatherings. I felt as if it was part of a routine. Many will not agree with me, but that was exactly how I feel.

I asked my mum about this a few days ago, "Why there's no more gathering with your secondary school friends anymore?" She said because I wasn't as smart as the other kids, she felt embarrassed. WTH. =/ That was a joke from my mum. Haha. Well, her proper answer was, "Maybe we are too busy that's why we did not plan any gatherings in the years." My heart sank. *sigh*

So, the problem was because we are too busy? Too busy to spend time with your family and friends? I don't want to believe that. We can spare some time, even if it is only an hour. In China, people get 15 days off celebrate CNY, but what about Singapore? I remembered having two days of break last year. I had to go back to school on the third day of CNY. Me no like it! =(

This is just my personal point of view. There is no right or wrong answers in this post.

All in all, I am hoping that I will have a more enjoyable celebration next year. :)

No idea

For you to know, for me to find out.

Soar above the sky, to seek the answer.

It's not an impossible feat.



Maybe...

I'm too nice?

I wrote a lengthy post but deleted it because I did not want to stir up any conflict. Yes, you said if I have any problems with you, I can just tell you. However, all you did was to defend yourself and did not even try to change for the better, stating that "I was born like that." Bullshit. You have to make decisions for yourself.

I promised myself not to mention this anymore since we were friends, but there's a limit to everything. Now, is this considered as criticism? I probably shouldn't write anything about friendship problems here anymore.

Solitude.

Dilemma

I only found out that AJC was opposite my school. Recently, whenever I walked out of the school, I will glance at AJC. "Why didn't I work hard enough? I always wanted a JC," I thought. Yes, up till June last year, I was determined to go to a JC because it has a structured timetables and school uniforms. I wouldn't have to worry about what to wear everyday. I admit, I always wanted to go to CJC because the people there looks nice and the environment is friendly, although there's the *ahem* rumour.

It was only when I received my MYE results that changed my mind. My results were horrible and I began to think a lot during the June holidays. I listed out all the pros and cons of the JC and Poly. JC might be stresser and I will have to mug everyday, but the school fees are cheaper(LOL) and I want to join everyone for the national anthem. On the other hand, many people said Poly is fun(but I feel very stress!) and lessons starts later. We could also wear whatever we want, dye our hair and it was also a perfect excuse to ask parents to buy a laptop for us. At the end of the entire course period, we will be awarded with a Diploma certificate.

The cons for Poly is that there are lesser scholarships available as compare to JC students, and if you dream of going to the top 10 universities in the world after getting your Diploma, they would most likely accept JC students instead. I want to earn a scholarship, but they might not want me.

Poly is more for an independent learner. I'm not one of them. I am too shy to approach people and ask questions. I was afraid of making mistakes and do presentations. If I was studying in a JC, I probably would be burying my head into many piles of books, trying to memorise notes for the examinations.

Well, I have no choice. I chose my choice and Poly already, so there's no way I could back out. My results aren't even qualified to go to a JC so I should stop thinking about it. Move on, and forget about my regrets. I can be a better person if I am willing to work hard in Poly.

Sending Shermaine off from the airport

Shermaine flew off on a Saturday afternoon and of course, her best friends had to send her off! Yep, so Jing Min, Doreen and I took the tedious exciting journey to the other end of Singapore and also took the shuttle bus to the Budget Terminal.

To cut the story short, we ate a bit at Macdonalds and began taking pictures outside the Terminal.

 Charmaine & Shermaine. :D

Doreen and Shermaine. :)

Jing Min and Shermaine. ;)

L-R: Doreen, JM, Shermaine & I. ;D

Flight Information. Heheh.

I hope Shermaine will enjoy her time in Hong Kong and get into the course she wants in a college. Study hard, and most importantly, visit us soon! :D

School~

I don't know why I'm feeling so tired nowadays. So far, I had only attended school for two days and I felt like dying already. :( I am feeling a tad stress because there's a test coming up soon. It is sort of a crash course. Everything is squeezed into eight weeks. Maybe Santo is true, we are tougher than students who come in April. I am not going to give up. I got into the course I wanted through sheer determination and perseverance.

As the saying goes, "WHEN THE GOING GETS TOUGH, THE TOUCH GETS GOING."

Afraid

I wish I knew another language like Japanese or Korean so I could pour my feelings here without many people knowing. :(

School will start tomorrow, but somehow, I feel a bit afraid. I hope everything will go well for me. :)

"When our actions do not, Our fears do make us traitors."
-William Shakespeare

Choosing of schools

I was wondering, if I were to participate in the JAE, what will my choices be? I am quite curious so I decided to write down a list of courses I want.

Here it goes:

1. Business Management(NYP)
2. Maritime Business(SP)
3. Real Estate Business(NP)
4. Marketing(NYP)
5. Materials Science(SP)
6. Baking and Culinary Science(TP)
7. Gerontological Management Studies(TP)
8. Food Science and Nutrition(NYP)
9. Applied Food Science & Nutrition(TP)
10. Information Technology(SP)
11. Information Technology(NP)
12. Landscape Design & Horticulture(NP)

The first four are those courses that you want to go, the fifth to eighth choices are what you are interested and the last four choices are what you can go in. However, I am not able to participate in JAE because I've took part in another exercise.

Lastly, today is the last day of the JAE registration, so please do submit the JAE form by 4pm today. :)

Whoops

Hi!

I know I've been blogging everyday(this is so not me!) but blogging comes in when I'm bored. *winks*

Right now, I just want to enjoy whatever days I have left and prepare for school!

I love school, not to forget about school uniforms. It's a pity that Poly doesn't require school uniforms because I will have no idea what to dress up for school! I'm lazy when it comes to dressing. I'll probably dress nicely for the first two weeks and go back to wearing t-shirt and shorts and slippers. HAHAHA. I'll try to dress appropriately ok. ;)

Everyone is so stress about their 12 choices while I'm idling my time away. *oops* I hope everyone will get into their desired course, Poly or JCs! :)

Unsure

What kind of person I am?

Am I weak?
Am I smart?
Am I kind?
Am I compassionate?
Am I arrogant?
Am I sincere?
Am I quiet?
Am I loud?
Am I a hypocrite?
Am I a two-sided person?

I am not sure.

I may be a smart person in some people's eyes, yet I may be taken as a fool in other people's eyes.

I am afraid of voicing out my opinions, but I do things in a diplomatic way if I must.

I do a lot of deep thinking, and people might think that I'm a cold person because I don't respond to them(I don't like to be disturbed when I'm thinking). The other reason will be because I'm afraid of voicing out my opinion. Misconceptions much. *sigh*

Right now, I am heading to a path where has no boundaries. Succeed only come when you had experienced a failure in your life.

=(

Unlike wordpress, blogger doesn't allow users to private some posts. Well, I'm not going to write too much here.

I collected my O-level results yesterday and I'm having mixed feelings about it. I should be contented since I'm accepted to the course I want. As for the Polytechnic I'm being accepted in, I love the environment and everything, just that it is far from my home. I'm afraid that I'll be late for lessons. =/

I was happy when I collect my results yesterday. However, when I reached home, I started thinking. Why did I not put in extra effort? This was not my usual self. Where was my I-want-to-get-good-grades motivation went? I could have done a lot better. I was so angry with myself that I cried in my sleep and kept on hurling hurtful remarks at myself. =(

I am really fortunate. Maybe it was because I always prayed to get into that course since Secondary Two and my seeing how sincere I was, my wish came true. Haha.

During the O-level period, I never study all the time, like I only studied the day before the examinations. I remembered the day I had A Math paper 2 and Chemistry paper, I was so tired that I slept after dinner when others might be studying for their other subjects. Then, the following Monday, I was in school from 8am to 3.30pm taking THREE papers, which was Literature paper 1 & 2 and Physics.

I loved my subject combination; English, Chinese, E Math, A Math, Combined Science, English Literature and Combined Humans(SS/Hist). Thast was my subject combinations whereas two-third of my class took Pure Biology. I dropped Biology when I was in Secondary Four. I was glad that I had focussed on English Literature instead of Combined Humans. ;D

Before the collection of results, I was afraid that I won't be abe to make it. My mum doesn't want me to get a Diploma at SIM. Hence, I planned to retake my O-levels as a private candidate, or even go to an ITE. I kept all my textbooks just in case I need it, but now that I know I'm safe, I'm going to sell my textbooks. :D

The only subject that surprised me was Combined Science. I did pretty well as compared my usual Science grades in school. I mean, I was REALLY surprised that I screamed! Haha!

I'm glad that I passed all my subjects and got a decent grade. From here, I shall climb on and be better in my studies. Work hard and study in a university after graduating from Polytechnic. That's my goal. I WILL do it. ;)

HELLO

I finally started work yesterday! It was tiring. If you're wondering, I'm working as a banquet server. The first thing I thought of was, wow, the ballroom is so small. >.< LOL. Small IS better, if not I have to walk a lot. Heheh. My pay is ridiculously low, as compared to the others. I want an increment!

I made a lot of mistakes yesterday, such as forgetting to clear the big platter and I went to take out the other dish. In the end, two people have to help me. That's embarrassing!!! I wasn't strong enough to carry the huge oval tray; it was really heavy. The good thing is that my partners I met are nice people. :) They helped me to carry the oval tray in and out of the kitchen.

I worked for 12.5 hours yesterday as there are two weddings going on during the day and at night. During the night wedding, I was called out to serve cocktails and I was reluctant because I don't dare to approach people. Oh well, I have to do my job properly.

I also scalded my fingers and legs while pouring and refilling the teapot. I prefer the guests during the day to the guests at night. They were so nice and I almost tripped when one of them caught me in the nick of time. ;D The guests during the night is okay, just that there were many young children running around me and I did not dare to walk too fast lest I spill the dishes on them.

For the first course, we have to carry the big platter and walk out. As I said, I wasn't strong enough to carry it and my body slanted to one side. LOL. However, some of them taught me the right way to carry it. :)

My day was supposed to end at 11pm but it was dragged on and I ended at 11.30pm instead. De Xin and I changed into our clothes and at around 11.55pm, we rushed towards the MRT(we have to change train) and we managed to catch the last train towards Joo Koon by RUNNING. Phew~

This post is too detailed but I wanted to keep it as a memory because that's my first working experience.


PS. I AM GOING TO COLLECT MY O-LEVEL RESULTS IN 1 HOUR 40 MINUTES TIME!!!

Dramas

I love watching dramas, especially Japanese dramas, because firstly, an average drama only have 10 episodes(they go by season) and secondly,  the storyline always amazes me. Sometimes, I like to compare Japanese & Taiwan dramas, for example, Hana Kimi. I like to compare Japanese and Korean dramas too, like Hana Yori Dango. I absolutely love Matsumoto Jun and Lee Min Ho. They are the main leads, and not to forget about Kim Hyun Joong. ;)

The most interesting drama I watched was Gokusen. It ran for three season and also a movie. In the first season, Matsumoto Jun from Arashi was the main lead. For the second season, Kamenashi Kazuya and Akanishi Jin were the two main leads and lastly, Takaki Yuya starred in the third season. Did you notice that the four of them are under Johnny's Entertainment? Arashi, KAT-TUN and HSJ. True enough, I fell in love with Jpop because of this reasons. ;)

I'm going to introduce you a Taiwan drama today. It is called "Gloomy Salad Days".

I love the opening theme song!




It is sung by Wan Fang. I like the spooky "feel". ;)


The Chinese name for it is called 死神少女. I don't really like Taiwan dramas because I find that the plots are always the same. However, I was wrong. According to Wikipedia, this drama involves 12 different stories which happened to teenagers, taken from real life social cases. Shen Qi is a student who has a brain tumor, giving him the ability to see Death Girl when no one else can. As he witnesses her task of ferrying different people to the afterlife, he gradually falls in love with her and begins to understand the transition between life and death.

The storyline is really interesting. I admit that one of the reason I watched this drama is because Aaron Yan is starring in it. However, as you watch this drama, you will find that the 12 different stories is a sad reality of the modern society. I strongly recommend everyone to watch it.

That's all I want to write. :)

Shaun's 1st day of school!

Before we left the house, I took pictures of my brother. :D

Before assembly...

                                                                                   

Tired looking brother.

 Hi there! :)

 Recess time...unorganised queues.

Shaun and his buddy.

What are you eating? ;D Hehehe.

 Shaun in his classroom.

 Random picture which I found it nice. :)

Overall, I like his Primary School even though it is not near our house. Their uniforms are so cuteee. ;D

Till then, ciao!

Reminisce

O levels results will be out in seven days. I will miss all my classmates and of course, the school that had nurtured me into a teenager.

I will definitely miss:

1. Those times when we stayed together as a class in unison
2. When we had some conflicts with our Physics teacher
3. When we were not allowed to move anywhere in the school compound during the H1N1 period
4. When we organised class outings

and many more...

So students, have fun during your secondary school life before you miss it! ;)

On the other note, my six-year-old brother is Primary One this year and will be attending Primary School for the first time tomorrow! :D

Shyness

I am a shy person. I seldom interact with strangers or people whom I'm not close with. I am afraid of approaching people.

After an incident which happened a few days ago, I went on to google up words that describes me. Agoraphobia and Autophobia. It means fear of leaving a safe place & fear of being alone or of oneself respectively.

Maybe because of that incident when I was 10 turned me into this type of person. The feeling of being alone made me feel scared and unsafe. I am also afraid to speak to strangers. Till now, no one was able to give me a sense of secureness except my family.

May I hope that I will overcome my phobias in a matter of time.

HAPPY NEW YEAR~

A brand new year, a brand new start.
Today is 1/1/11. ;D

My New Year rosolutions are:

1. Ace in my studies
2. Get a part-time job
3. Continue dancing
4. Make new and good friends
5. Become a model =O
6. Spend more time with my family


My reasons(according to my listings):

1. Let me skip the O levels part. I know I will not do well. I have actually thought about it. What should I do if I failed my O levels? Get on with life. I'm fortunate to be born in Singapore because the govenment takes care of her needs. No matter what educational path you take, you will definitely be able to graduate from a university, provided that you work hard. I don't come from a wealthy family. Some parents might send their children to a college overseas if they could notget into any good colleges in Singapore. My parents can't afford that kind of money. Therefore, I have decided to work extremely hard and ace in my studies no matter where I go to in the future.

2. By having a job means that you have a responsibility to take. The first thing people thought of "a part-time job" will be money. Well, who doesn't love money? I do, but not to some extent that I spend it on branded goods. I save. For what? For rainy days. You will never know when you need the money. Every cents counts. Moreover, by having a job means that you will be responsible for your own money. You can earn $800 a month, but you can also spend the $800 away in a day.

3. Dancing is a form exercise. It tones up your muscles and most of all, it gives us a curvy figure. I love dancing. I danced when I was in primary school but quit dancing when I got into secondary school. At that time, I wanted to have a change in environment, so I decided to join Guzheng. Four years later, I realised that music is not my forte. Dance is what I'm better in. I am not as flexible as a dancer but at least my fingers can touch the floor when I bend down. Remember, I haven't danced for four years. I missed dancing. I even remembered the last time I danced was for the SYF in 2006. We clinched the Silver award. :D I hope to get back to dance soon.

4. Friends come and go. I don't believe in that. As long as you make an effort to stay in touch with your friends, they won't go. Till now, I still stay in touch with my primary school friends. It is easy to make new friends, but it is difficult to make good friends. How would you know if they betray you one day? Therefore, I hope that when I go to a new place, I will make new and good friends. Thank you Santo, for reminding me. :)

5. Hmm...model...it's so contradictive. I mean, a model, you must have the looks and height. I think I look average, but I don't know how to put on makeup. As for height wise, my height is average too. To become a supermodel, you must be at least 1.75m for females. I will never be one. *laughs* Back to the main point, I always had a dream of walking on a catwalk platform when I was young. Needless to say, it is impossible. I'm terribly shy(towards strangers) and I think my face will turn red before it's my turn to go up. LOL. Maybe I will be one, if some kind souls give me a chance. ;)

That's all for my new year resolution.