我写中文！

哇，我也有打中文的一天。很佩服自己。哈哈。虽然打很慢，中文又很差，但我就是想打中文嘛。

最近心情很低落，尤其是今天。

先说今天吧。今天我被一位同学气死， 气死到很想哭！！！我从来没有对同学们生气过，因为我觉得同学就应该互相帮助嘛，但他妈的，他做出一件令我很生气的事！在 project peer evaluation 里, 他 mark 我们每个 group members 的分数 down! 我们做的还比他多列，那里可以这样！！！还有，老师问我们问题时，他一直插嘴。你不讲话没人会当你是哑巴! 做 report 做的比别人少，讲话就讲的那么多! Tsk.

最近心情很低落的原因呢，我也不知道。就是很多烦恼的事。想找朋友说但又怕烦到他们。谁能了解我的心情呢？

我觉得我变得更安静了。我再也不比以前笑的那么灿烂，现在也很少出去，每天就想着放学回家。这样也好，可以省钱。我不笑，没人也会注意。

最近每天不够睡，早上起床眼睛都是肿肿的。我要我的漂亮眼睛回来！T.T 考试啊考试，我希望您会容易呀！对了，考完试后要找工作，没工作就没钱。没钱就没得玩。没得玩就会在家看连戏剧。在家看连戏剧眼睛度数就会升。眼睛度数升就要换一幅新眼镜和隐形眼镜。换一幅新眼镜和隐形眼镜就要花钱。所以，我还是要找工作！咳~

好啦，我打太多中文了。自己看也看到头晕。@.@ 我就写到这里了！拜拜！

Lethargic

I am sooooooooooooooooo tired. It's 11.59pm right now, what am I doing??!

Exams are coming, exams are coming. I am scared, shit yes. I am totally unprepared.

I will do a proper post after exams. PROMISE!

It's been a while~

I really need to keep my temper in check! I get pissed off at the slightest things nowadays. :(

I really have nothing to blog.

Oh ya, final exams are coming in about a month's time. This means that I have to start mugging now!

180 days

Today is the 180th day. Approximately 6 months. How time flies.

I bet he doesn't remember me.

It is really time for me to cut the strings with him. He lost my contact number (I guess), so it's time for me to move on as well. Six months is really, really long. I don't harbour any feelings for him any more; I just hope that we will stay contact as normal friends.

The people around me keep telling me that he's a jerk. He wasn't a jerk in the past. He became one after that. Can I consider myself lucky? Haha.

I am still young. There are many opportunities for me. I really hope that the next one will be my last one too. After all, since young, I had always told myself that the guy I date will be my first and last, but it is not possible any more.

It might be tough, but I have to be brave and face the reality. Stay strong, Charmaine.

School break

I am currently having a two weeks school break. I'm not going to have a lot of rest, but, at least I don't have to wake up so early for two weeks! :D

I feel like blogging, but I don't know what to write. What should I write? Write about my life which will bore you? Or write about my opinions on a certain thing? Nah, I won't choose the latter lest I offend someone. The former is better. :)

Okay, so this week is the more relaxed week and next week will be my more hardworking week. Most of my project meetups are next week, hence, my free time is this week. I don't feel like uploading the photos on my blog; all of the photos are on my Facebook or Instagram. I update on my twitter, share songs on my Facebook, and upload photos on my Instagram. Do check out my Twitter and Instagram? Haha.

I will not be in Singapore for the next three days, and I hope that I will be able to find a lil' serenity during my short trip abroad. I love to go overseas because no one will recognise me and I am able to reflect a lot of things. Family and friends are good companions, but sometimes, I need to be alone.

How lovely would it be if I were able to travel to a new place, pick up a new language and meet new people. But of course, my heart will always be with Singapore. :)

Last sentence

Exams are over for this term! I'm so excited for the two weeks break to come even though I'll be working my ass off on projects. Well, at least I don't have to make myself crawl out of bed for the next two weeks!

Oh yes, GSS is here, but I have no moolah to spend! T.T I'm kinda sad, but I shall resist the temptation of spending for now! *nods head*

是时间往前走了。我不哭了。
不回头了。

First love

Love can be a happy thing, yet it makes one heartbroken too.

When you fall in love for the first time, you want to make him your first and only last man. But how many couples can actually do that?

First love hurts the most. 

I took a very long time to recover; maybe five months?

What I did isn't the good method, but I buried myself with books during school days(not), and I watch lots of  funny variety shows and dramas during the holidays. I went out at least twice a week during the school holidays and all I did was to have fun with my friends. 

It hurts, but I have to get going with my life. My life doesn't revolve around him. Anyway, he told me, "我还年轻，还有很多机会." It means that I am still young and still have many chances. Yes, I still have many chances(not many but at least more than him haha) and I should try to widen my social circle! Join more activities, meet new friends!

Get along with your life and bury the past at the bottom of your heart! All the best, Charmaine!

Blank

Hou xiong delete lei, dan hai um sei dak. Dan hai yu gor um delete lei, ngor sum um ji dim ya. Dim xun ya...hai.

Okay that was Cantonese(?). I don't really know how to write in Cantonese. I am still learning though.

My fringe is in a disastrous state and I am so sad! It's okay Charmaine, hair will grow, just suffer for one month!!!

Fringe

It's been a while.

I'm so busy recently and I hardly have the time to update my Facebook, let alone blogging. Sigh. The disadvantage of being a student. :(

I rebonded my fringe yesterday. Haha. My fringe looks so stiff though. The hair stylist did not cut the way I wanted my fringe to be. *sigh* It's time to source for new hair stylists!

I am recently hooked onto Instagram. Does anyone wants to follow me on Instagram? Heehee. My username is charmainewyx. :)

The past whole week was Graduation Day, and I feel so happy for all the seniors! A part of me want to graduate soon, but another part of me wish to stay in school. After all, school is a place for learning as well as having fun with friends.

I will update some other time. Ta!

My feelings

I used to have a voracious appetite for books and I made a lot of effort memorise chunks of vivid phrases and quotes. I love to paint my essays with colourful phrases and often got told off by my English teacher because "there's simply too many phrases in my essays".

Haha.

I would love to paint my feelings using colourful phrases but, I cannot do it. My English has weakened to the point where I cannot even describe my feelings, let alone writing an essay.

This shows that I have to start reading again. Oh English, how I adore you, I promise I will pick up my reading skills again, so please do not disappoint me!

Lazyyyyyyyyyyy

Why am I so lazy???

I want to study, but I can't focus.

Ahhhhhhhhh.

This semester's modules are so difficult! I don't mind having some difficult modules, but ALL of the modules are difficult this time round. I guess I won't be able to do well this semester. :(

Another thing is, I realize my English has weakened a lot. I mean A LOT. What should I do??? I have to pull my command of English proficiency up!!!

I have so many things to do, yet I felt that the time given to me isn't enough. Or rather, I did not maximise my time well. I need to stay right on track! Time, time, time. It ain't gonna wait for anyone.

SIGH.

Life...

No one is able to comprehend the amount of stress I am going through now.

No one.

Did I make the right choice?

Social life, studies and sleep. Which of the two will you choose?

I chose studies and sleep. It doesn't mean that I won't have any social life though.

I once believed that these three will work out perfectly, but boy, was I wrong. I can't manage. Maybe I'm the only one that can't manage. Or maybe, I need to manage my time well. I am determined to change for the better from this semester onwards.

Did I make the right choice in allowing my friend to manage my Facebook account? Well, I am trying some sort of an experiment right now, to see whether my grades will pull up if I don't log into Facebook. If my grades do not pull up, then I guess I will be a heavy user of Facebook again. Haha. I hope I succeed!

It may sound stupid to do that, and maybe some people might talk behind my back, saying how silly it will be. However, this is my choice and I hope that everyone will respect(?) it.

I have said my piece.

Reminisce

I miss everything.

I know it's stupid to write this, but this is how I feel right now. 

I yearn for happiness. "When the going gets tough, the tough gets going." Easy to say, difficult to do.

I feel so helpless. Sometimes I want to lean on someone's shoulder and cry. Yes, crying won't help much, but I feel better after crying. Go ahead and call me weak. Even when I hang out with my friends, the feeling just came back and my tears are choked back down. Who will want to hang out with a person full of negativity? No one. Controlling is what I do.

Memories. It can't be erased. It just remains there, forever. "Sink it to the bottom," my brain said. But my heart refused. Such a minor problem yet I can make a fuss out of it I know. What should I do?

The problem lies within me. I can't let go. "It's not worth." I agree with you, but it's tough. 

我唔得在想佢啦, 但系好难哦...我真的好傻呀. 咳...唔紧要, 我得嘅! Charmaine 加油!

Blog revival

Hi. So as you can see, the blogging bug has hit me again. :D I know I know, it took many months for me to blog again.

Stuffs. Many things happened these few months. Sadness, happiness, new found friends etc.

Sadness. It's inevitable. What should I say? Haha. Well, everything is over, and I do not wish to mention it again. Just let the sadness part sink to the bottom of my heart, where no one will know or mention the sadness part to me again.

Happiness. Not really, but yes, I am gradually becoming happier now. Live positively!

New found friends. Of course I'm referring to my Poly friends! Haha.

Year 1 is over. Year 2 is coming. Uh oh. I want to lead a new life. I'm never gonna live like before anymore. Lead a fulfilling life, widen my social circle and meet new people! It's a cycle, ain't it?

Actually I wanted to blog about the sadness part, but this is a public platform, so no no.

I'm gonna join another CCA when school reopen. A sports CCA.

I will try to blog once a week from now on. :)